Ave!
Anners on the page. Feeling like Petrarch, who felt he had more in common with the ancients than the folks in his own era. Should I start writing letters to Ovid? Because I sort of like that bastard. He knew how to enjoy himself, that Ovid.
Seriously, it’s like I am connecting with nobody in my daily life. Nothing is fun, exciting. My hopes for a brighter future are dissipating. It looks bad from here, you know? I was watching CNN…
I did recieve a call from my dear friend Alice, who’s having no luck in L.A. with the job situation. That was nice. I love her and I miss her. My phone ran away from me many months ago, and I am a penny pincher and decided not to get a new one just in case the one that had run away from me decided it missed my arse and wanted to come back to it’s mater. No ephing dice. So I dug up my old phone and went to T-Mobile to get a new SIM card. Ha. I should have just done that shit in the first place… it felt so nice, holding a cellphone in my palm again.
I thoroughly dislike my job. It’s dumb, I can feel my brain cells evaporating within the confines of my skull.
Why didn’t I get my arse to that Pasolini film thing at Berkeley last month? I’m a fool, that’s why.
I have a crush on my gay friend’s boyfriend. He’s all sorts of cute… Okay, not a crush, really, I just want him to cease dating my friend and cease being gay.
I’m trying to write this novel. It won’t let me in ! I typed out the title on the word processor the other day “Ruins” just to remind myself that I was working on a novel tentatively titled as such, and I was suddenly overcome with the desire to just go ahead and drown myself. It’s that bad. It’s like I erect walls for the express purpose of running into them. I should have never mentioned I was writing this book, because peoples are going to periodically check up on me. Usually when I write, it’s like a swim in the big bad ocean. It’s liberating, pleasurable and terrifying. The ocean can kill your ass.
Hi.
Did you ever try NaNoWriMo? I tried last year and failed miserably, but then again I’m no novelist.
I started to try that once. Seemed wrong to try to spit out a book in 30 days, so I bailed.
Yeah, I know what you mean. A friend of mine did it and finished though.
Love the avatar!
Ooh! Your friend finished? Any good?
* The Avatar is awesome, innit?
* Don’t be surprised if this layout changes again… The Libra’s scales are unbalanced tonight…
Wow, the lime green is, um, well, lime!
Sweetheart, if you stop putting so much pressure on yourself you might actually find a gate in those walls of yours.
Concentrate on one thing at a time. Even if it means putting the novel aside until you work on the job situation.
For most of last year I was dissatisfied. I’m usually dissatisfied with at least one thing at any given time, but last year it was everything.
I guess I’m feeling a little calmer now that I’ve got another job. I can see with more clarity and I feel like this year is gonna be good. And I have to say meeting all you great peeps has perked me up as well.
So….. pick one thing that you want to change and start working on it. In the meantime, I’ll send you some positive thoughts!
And I love the avie!
I told you to try the drugs – but make sure you follow the instructions.
What is ur job? I hate mine too.
Mmmm… drugs.
I know, Joders. The lime green is terrible… ha! I hate blog layouts. piss me off so much!
Thanks Joders, the voice of reason… how is your new job going along?
I do need to fix the job situation first, tho. You are right about that.
Ha! I love my avatar…
* Janers, are u quitting blogsworth? It’s ok, you can tell me. Ugh, I will not speak of my job.
* Drugs are bad.
Anners, this layout is much better. So much easier to look at and so calming.
The new job is BORING! Incase you hadn’t figured that out already. Friday I actually get to do some hands on stuff. However, I fear that the actual work itself is still going to be boring. I have to keep reminding myself that at least I escaped from the pits of hell.
And drugs are really bad.
maybe if more people took prescription anti-depressants they wouldn’t turn to heroin.
I’m not qitting blogsworth I just don’t feel up to posting that much. I like gossip because it is all so silly but there is all this stuff about Health Ledger now so it’s almost as sad as the real news.
Joders, it is kinda calming, huh? … I do apologize for that lime green nightmare. I was feeling crazy.
Hands on work for Friday! That’s good news. Training is the worst part of every job… maybe you’ll meet nicer people there… hopefully?
* I understand Janers! Just wondering. I hate what they’re doing to Heath. I’m sticking to the messboards and stuff that amuses me… I’m going to be posting a lot less for various reasons…
Are you still out of school? Enjoying the beach?
Don’t worry about the lime green. My eyesight is back to normal again now, so it’s all good.
I’ve met some nice people at the new place. This is good too.
Hope you’re feeling a little better. You seem to have been down lately. I’m not liking it.
And I know I keep on saying it, but I really mean it. If you want to talk about it, I’m all ears. Email me if you want to.
Maybe I’m a little naive, but I’d like all of us to be happy.
Jodie! Did you mean another layout? I forgot… I was going through so many today… I’m confusing myself.
I want you all to be calm when you come here… is this the calm layout or was there something between this one and the lime green carnage?
hee hee.
* Good to hear there are decent people there. All jobs suck a little bit because all people suck a little bit. Will you be doing similar work here?
* Have I seemed down lately? I’ve felt down a little bit. Don’t mind me, moody is my middle name. I think I just need to sleep more… I will send you an email though, sometime soon. As soon as I can string together my thoughts…
Actually it worries me that my moods have drifted over to the blogs… I’d like us all to be happy, too.
I didn’t see anything between the lime green and this one. I like this one. I love the blue, it’s my favourite colour. And I like the ruins in the photo.
The new job is nothing like the old one. Hardly any client contact for a start. Yay!!! I now work for the Office of State Revenue (a govt department) in the State Debt Recovery Office. We are in charge of collecting revenue (funnily enough) from infringements like parking, traffic, failing to vote in elections etc. Right now I am working in the section that locates people when they are trying to avoid paying their fines. Lots of analysis and investigating. But monotonous and tedious. Oh well.
I kind of think that the blogs are a good place to air your moods. I’ve found that writing this stuff down has allowed me to get some stuff off my chest that I couldn’t have shared with anyone else. I’ve never said anything to my sister or brother about the feeling of dread that I talked about in my post on my mum.
Anyways, you email whenever you want to, there’s no rush. Even if you have no clear thoughts. I respond well to garbled and confused!
“I thoroughly dislike my job. It’s dumb, I can feel my brain cells evaporating within the confines of my skull. ”
Do you realize I say this almost daily?! I also believe when I was home with my broken rib, I felt my soul and brain re-grow a bit! It was a beautiful experience. Now, I am once again soulless and retarded. I guess if I was born completely moronic, it wouldn’t bother me so…
Anyway, cool beans! I feel like I was born in da wrong time period too
* Oh, that’s cool. No clients, Joders! Becuz people are rude and arseholey all the world over.
I dig the ruins meself. Than you for concurring. <–hee hee.
Australia has states? I didn’t know that!
* You should write a novel about a cop who goes back in time to the old west… where is installment no. 4?
The poor people who were born unintelligent don’t realise that they’re unintelligent. I sometimes think that they must lead a happy and oblivious existence.
I often think that I’m smart enough to realise that I’m just not smart enough.
I agree with all you just said.
haha like the layout.
i need a new fone, buh i jus bought this memory card for my current fone (which is held together by tape, wuh? i like to flip the bak cover open and closed haha!) im gonna keep this fone for awhile, b/c i wanna save some money
uh-oh anners, let me jus say dun try and break a gay couple up. b/c u will get the WORST arse whippin of yi life haha! we dun play when it comes to our men
Okay! I won’t try to break a gay couple up!
Yeah, number four…..well, it’s sitting half written on my desktop. Does that count?
Nope.